julchen11 (julchen11) wrote,
julchen11
julchen11

for prisca1960



Just to say thank you, sweetie ...

Title: Now and never
Pairing: C/Z
Rating: PG

They broke up.

Why?

They seemed to be happy.

Del AND Casey.

 

It’s all the more difficult now.

Not to become weak.

Not to dream.

Not to think about this little “us”

in my head.

 

I won’t change anything.

SHE was your first choice.

Not ME.

 

It hurt.

It hurts so much.

Always does.

 

I should change my life.

Quick.

Leave everything behind,

Run away.

I should.

I can’t.

I could.

I will.

Liar.

 

You’ve been here yesterday…

so I took the next step

back into my snail shell –

I didn’t let you in.

My door stays close.

Every door.

 

There’s no second chance.

Not for you.

Not for me.

There wasn’t an “us” –

I’ll leave it that way.

 

To be hurt one time

is more than enough…

It’s enough for a life-time.

 

It wasn’t me

Playing a game.

Unfair.

Cowardly.

Never did.

Never will.

 

Just leave me alone.

For now

and

Never…

.
Tags: c/z; poem;
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